Three A.M... Playlist on shuffle and love songs playing one on one. Makes me think. Nothing happening in life as planned.. I'm not lonely, I just feel vacant. The only ones I can call or text right now are my best friends. I remember how the nights were so different this summer. I wasn’t this alone. Time literally flew when we two used to talk and it was all so dream-like and wonderful. Maybe I miss that time more than the person.
I guess it’s easier to lose people in life. Some little mistakes when combined become a huge roadblock on the path of your relationship and everything you've worked so hard for is gone. It could take minutes to end a relationship or it can deteriorate slowly, day by day. That is more painful. Everything should be instant, at least it hurts less.
The slow death is catastrophic. It leaves you nowhere because for the time it is in the dying process, you have that hope that maybe it’s gonna get back that life..and you try to do things to make it work, you wish for miracles and never miss a chance to give it all. But then as it has to die, you are shattered when it’s over. I don't say instant end isn't painful, just that you don't have to go through that useless 'extra effort' part in it.
But then again, if you've really been in love with someone so much, you can't believe it is The End if it happens in an instant.
I know I sound confused..
Life is confusing too and we've got to deal with it, Every Day and Night. All I know right now is, there's a Heart Vacancy and I don't see anyone who can fill it at the moment. I'm going to be content being alone until I find 'The One'.
:) 
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